Daddy Issues

POETIC PROCESS

The poem Starts at 6:34

Daddy Issues

To know you is to love you

Or at least that’s the phrase

Praises aloud for this day

for the daddy’s that

Didn’t leave their children to the rain

Conversations accusations about him

the fatherless son that doesn’t tie his tie straight

sits outside on the porch all-day

and doesn’t give his baby mama a break

Her house is his crib now

His nursing turns to mooching

he doesn’t understand what he’s doing

her backs breaks the kids are watching

the cards fall from the spades table

on every holiday

that's when he’s around

for the celebrations and photographs

but the systemic systems will have the last laugh

That’s what they wanted

Broken households

minds begin to fold like maturing proteins

Mothers cling to their sons and push away their daughters and the system repeats

the son leaves that nest to fall to that daughter that never got nurturing from her father

so whatever will do

you do me I do you

We’ve seen it a million times

So when does it stop

my thoughts on this situation is that this ideology wasn’t true

It's Egpigenetic gerational transcendic" verbal seed planting

saying that I didn’t see what was happing is a fallacy

Keisha don’t have a daddy

Meghan don’t have a daddy

so why should I be any different?

Questions

My anger more so comes in thinking how hateful some people have been

and how they didn’t realize how there tongue could offend me in my 10s

You care how your actions could've molded me and you didn't give a shit

you were more concerned about the benefit or inconvenience

no one wants to deal with single mother of now two

But to speak in front of children this way some of you should be more careful

some of you should be ashamed

your daddy probably wasn't shit

so you wish you were fucking your son hating on a mother with a daughter of one

I could've been a baby mom

a shooter or just in the streets

but I'm degreed and nft’d

and people are confused

Why because I didn’t decide to

fester in your rejection

these aren't daddy issues

these are daddy lessons

In times like these we love to say it's a learned behavior in children with racism, and hatred

Not to equate it but let's conflate it

You mean to tell me that

keisha didn't have a daddy

Meghan didn't have a daddy

her momma

nor her momma either

And we're all roaming broken in the ether

Let me explain something

Let me make it simple

yes in a perfect world I would want ever black household to have a mother father three children and a dog but ….

I know everything works against that

and as a community, we know that

trying to patch a wound we clammer to stop the bleeding overexplaining these reasons for absence

they televising pain like it's ad sense

Anecdotally

I used to talked to a dude that didn't want kids because of what his father never did, didn't want to be a husband because he was fathering his kin bought his momma a house and paid his sisters tuitions*

What's more father than that

past the monetary

watching cousins preparing weekly lunches

I think the fatherless children get a bad rap most responsible we handles that

all of this is just a projection from family members and extend making it seem like we're broken is sad and personally

I'll never hold that bag

I'm me I'm not your pain your agony a statistic an overly independent fatherless black women

my thoughts are all over the place because I've thought about this for decades

how can one miss what never existed